Stockings were hung.....

Christmas is my favorite holiday. I love the ruckus, family, friends, gift-giving, decorating, AND most of all the reason for the season. It is fun to see my children grow in the love of the Lord.

This year I am just struggling. It has been 3 weeks since my miscarriage and I am just still not myself. I know that it takes time but I feel like I am cheating my family.....

We (Kendall and I) hung the stockings the other day. We put a stocking up for a baby that will never see any goodies in it or under the tree. It is so hard to see joy when I still feel sorrow.

It has been a good growing experience for Kendall and for that I am grateful. Just yesterday she asked me about Heaven and in specific if we would be able to see the "baby from your tummy" when we get there.

So for now, I am praying for peace & a little bit of my Christmas joy back this year......