Always.........

This song sustained me in 2014 through deployment, the late part of pregnancy, delivering on my own again, evacuating for a scary fire, the fear of putting our Jordan girl down without Ben, 4 kids by myself, and of course Ben coming home, subsequent bells palsy and reintegrating into the family.

It never fails to elicit more emotion than I can handle. As we stood and sang it at church this Sunday, I decided to claim it for 2018 too.

We are on the very short down hill slope to retirement and all the uncertainties that it holds. I have been filled with anxiety of what is to come. Both with what Ben will decide on for a career and where my venture back into the work outside of the home path will go. The lyrics wash over me and calm my fears over what is about to come.

I want to be as transparent about my struggles as I can so that I can use them for God's glory when he delivers us to the other side of this......whatever that may look like!

...........I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord!!!